I’m trying not to hurt. I’m working to stay calm and not let my anger get the best of me.
But it’s hard.
It’s hard to heal yourself, and your past hurts.
It’s hard to see things that hurt you in the past happen in the present.
But that’s life.
You can’t make other people compassionate just because you care.
You can’t force others to be truthful just because you are honest.
You can’t expect others to understand just because you do.
And you certainly can’t control anyone else’s kindness (or cruelty).
So what can you do? … What can I do, in this moment, to help keep myself on an even keel – – so that I don’t take out my pain on those I love and continue this wretched cycle?
I can STOP.
Stop to JUST BREATHE.
Stop to remember that I am okay; I am safe.
Stop to remind myself that I AM loved; there are people in my life who take/took me (and others) for granted and while I wish I was more a part of their lives, I choose to let that feeling of rejection go. I know that it is not about me, it is about them. I choose to walk in LOVE.
Stop to meditate on my blessings. <3 I have so much for which to be grateful.
Stop and readjust my focus on what really matters and what I can do to make a positive difference — if not in my life, then in somebody else’s.
Stop, and breathe again.
Wow… I really do feel better.