When I had the idea to start this blog, I was pretty excited to get it up and running. The act of actually doing so, I’ve come to realize, is much harder than I had originally anticipated. Nonetheless, I’ve kept trekking along, knowing in my heart of hearts I’m on the path to something, though I’m struggling to see exactly what that something is. Each day my vision becomes a little clearer. Yet, I find myself avoiding this blog and not really sure why. So I decided to evaluate what is holding me back and I’ve come to the following conclusion.
1. Part of the reason: I am scared to openly voice many of my inner thoughts and opinions. This has always been an insecurity of mine. Through years of therapy and independent personal research I have come to understand that this fear of speaking up is really a reflection of some of my deepest rooted fears: the fear of rejection and the fear of abandonment.
~> I’ve realized that the only way to overcome these fears is to trust that I am not capable of handling more than is humanly (physically) possible and that God does not expect me to try. I just need to live the life God intended for me – my life lived to the absolute fullest – and know that He’s got my back on the things that are beyond my control.
2. Most of the reason: I’m not exactly sure what to blog about on a day-to-day basis that would be useful to readers. Call it writer’s block of sorts. I’ve often felt like I have all the puzzle pieces, but tremendous difficulty starting the puzzle.
~> In order to take any sort of action, it’s most useful to have a written plan. In my excitement of the overflow of ideas I had when starting the blog, I jumped in head first, in natural Me fashion. I know what I want to convey, but I am lacking a vital tool to making it happen: a written plan. And what better place to start than from the beginning?
Therefore, the next blog will feature My Story. I will then proceed to outline the envisioned journey of the American Dream Maker. This may include suggested ways to use the American Dream Maker blog regularly, the website’s connection to Becoming Mrs. Casey, and more. Stay tuned!